Saturday, April 28, 2007

in need of love ,cake and several gallons of ice cream

I don't know if anyone has noticed but i try to avoid atypical & quite frankly annoying adolscent whinging and whining on my blog , stuff like why oh why don't I have a boyfriend /acne free face / divine bod/ good grades etc etc ad nauesuem . but life has become somewhat overwhelming (as is the rather irritating wont of life) and if i cannot rant pathetically about the idiotic mundanties of my insignificant exsistence on my blog which is privy to complete strangers where can i possibly do it ? to friends , family ? but my rather elegant(bear my delusions) , confident pose would explode rather uncharmingly. so here goes , my first and hopefully last utterly idiotic hormone fueled rant about the silly things that have been niggling me
firstly , i am frankly quite sick of studying law , its starting to seem like an exercise in futility , just look at the state of this country , its exhausting and my proffessors for the most part are pompous, pretentious asses (with a few exceptions) I'm sick of the moronic burecracy , the toadiness of my fellow students who take every chance to fawn at the proffessors
its all just ........ bleugh . but then im already in my second year and starting all over again is going to mean ive pretty much wasted two years sans achieving anything tangible or significant
im am enjoying my journalistic work , despite that most of what i am writing is basically mindfluff but then i am only 18 so what can i realistically excpect ? but still (cue self pitying snivelling) I'm mortally afraid that all my high and mighty literary hopes are nothing but self delusion and that i'll end up a great big ghastly mediocrity (a fate i will not dwell on for fear of arousing dormant suicidal thoughts )
i hate the fact that my parents expectations of me have dwindled so pathetically (due to lacklustre grades amongst other things)
blah blah blah
you know what after writing this , i realize what a wretched silly im being , my problems are really quite piffling and i really oughtnt bore the few people who read this blog
but sometimes the little stupidties acquire a ludicrous significance and they threaten to engulf you unless you tell them to someone, even if to complete strangers
and now i have breaken my cardinal rule of not acting like a gushing , callow teenager with great aplomb
ah well

I apologize

finis twitiness

6 comments:

Amnesiac said...

I am currently experiencing the exact same existentialist crisis/work questions and I am 30. I too recorded them on my blog.

You write really well (though you could be more liberal with the punctuation) and I'm glad to hear that you're pursuing a sideline in journalism. I would like to know where you write.

My unsolicited advice is to finish the law degree, take what you can from it and then get on with doing what you love.

Forsoothsayer said...

second amnesiac on all points.

besides, you still have to go to grad school! which will be cool. don't worry about ur grades.

hebe said...

thank you both for the advice , and believe me im working on the puncutation , but going to 7 schools within one lifetime hasn't done much for both my mathemetical and punctuating skills
oh i write full time for live magazine and i ocassionally freelance for campus

Maxxed`ouT said...

I beg to differ.
Why not drop out and start pursuing a degree in journalism NOW?!
Why stack a law degree up on the shelf if you know in your heart you gonna end up doing nothing with it?
Get out of there and give your dreams the wings it needs to fly. It's better late than never!

Jeanne said...

My opinion is that you should pursue a career in journalism or writing as your blog is hilarious. As an American now living in Egypt I sympathize with your tribulations attending the universities here. I hope you will find professors that will inspire you to finish your degree (even if not in law). I recently finished my undergraduate degree at age 48 years and it was worth every drop of sweat, every moment of anguish to finish a paper and the comradery I had with the other older adult students in my classes. Find your passion and follow it.

Jeanne said...

My opinion is that you should pursue a career in journalism or writing as your blog is hilarious. As an American now living in Egypt I sympathize with your tribulations attending the universities here. I hope you will find professors that will inspire you to finish your degree (even if not in law). I recently finished my undergraduate degree at age 48 years and it was worth every drop of sweat, every moment of anguish to finish a paper and the comradery I had with the other older adult students in my classes. Find your passion and follow it.